My Lover's Resolve by Rosa Swann

Author:Rosa Swann [Swann, Rosa]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Easily Distracted Media

Chapter Six

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It feels good to be in Destin’s arms, when I feel him all around me and like he might be able to protect me, that he might have a way to solve our problems.

But he doesn’t have a way to solve this, and neither have I. Even when I try to search for solutions, solutions to not wanting to mate young, or how to delay mating and things like that, the search results have been... They’re not good.

There are people who swear by some type of new medication, it supposedly ‘pauses’ the need to mate. But if I then read about people who’ve used the medication, or who have been forced to use it, it doesn’t sound promising. Some people say it doesn’t take away the mental stress, it just takes away the physical effects, and mating is as much about the mental side as the physical side. So that’s not a solution. It’s no use that it would suppress my physical need for Destin, when I’ll still think about him every moment I’m not with him, when he’ll still take up all my thoughts. It’s no good.

I wish I could just stay here, in his arms, forever. I feel safe here, listening to his voice, to his breathing. He’s always made me feel safe. I used to call him my big protector, and we used to joke that it was like he was my personal guardian.

But now I respond to his Alpha-being when we’re like this and something inside me really likes that. It’s stronger than before, this sense of calming, of calming down when I’m around him, a knowing I’ll be protected at any cost.

I open my mouth, taking a deep breath, and then try again. “We need to talk to someone, explain what’s going on.”

“We can’t.” Destin’s voice is rough. “We already know the answer they’ll give.”

“I know.” I squeeze my eyes shut. “But we can’t keep going on like this either. What will we do when the weekend ends? We’ll both have to go back to our homes. You can’t stay at my place when you visit me, and if I stay over at yours... They’ll find out. There’s just... I don’t see a way out.”

My stomach tightens when I think of how my mum, my Beta mum, was not much younger than I am now when she had me. She turned eighteen shortly after I was born. Will I repeat the same pattern, getting pregnant early and having to give up the life I had dreamed of?

Mum left me at Daddy’s place when he was looking after both of us after I was born, and Daddy and Dad ended up adopting me because Mum really couldn’t take care of me. But I don’t want... I don’t want something like that. I want... I want a life, a career.

I never thought that I might end up in a similar situation as Mum. But she had her older brother to rely on, I don’t know who I could ask for help, who we could ask for help.

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